Strange feelings

Well, I'm feeling like boycotting blogging for awhile. I probably won't, but there's 2 things I'm thinking: 1. public blogging (and i know it was my choice not to do a private blog) can make it all seem so idealistic - our lives i mean. yes i can post about the tough stuff, but i get most excited about posting fun stuff about the kids, so that's what goes on more, because really, that's more fun to share. 2. if i keep blogging, then i feel like i'm not doing justice to the sadness i feel about losing my father-in-law. i just want that post that i wrote about him to stay at the top and not fade into the blogging distance... Even just writing that seems like now I have permission to 'move on' in blogging without appearing as if I'm forgetting...